Trying to cheer myself up a bit, though some of this will still be somewhat depressing because im answering things very truthfully, since my mood is still very very damp indeed, and that’s putting things softly. Im trying to become positive again, don’t worry.

Talking to other vets, I found out that Meadow-baby only has a few months to perhaps a year at most. I just hope that she shows me she can beat the odds and live for that full year, or longer. Im going to try and live without thinking about it, and love her like no other. Its just still a bit hard to truly, wholly accept. Just knowing that her time is limited.

Thank you to everyone who commented, I dont know when ill get around to responding again since its the end of the semester getting closer and closer, but eventually, ill try to respond to everyone. I really do appreciate every comment and loving gesture I get. Know that I DO read and take to heart everything said here. *hugs*

And now to the meme. It did make me smile, at least. And think. Since thinking is hard for me lately im suffering from so much anxiety. :/

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RULE: What you're supposed to do... and please do not spoil the fun. Create a new note, copy and paste this message, delete my answers and type in yours. Then tag at least 10 good friends and family INCLUDING the person who tagged you. The theory is that you will learn one new thing about each of your friends.
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THREE NAMES THAT FRIENDS CALL YOU
1. Tracker
2. Rachel
3. Wolfy

THREE MOST IMPORTANT DATES IN YOUR LIFE (date/month)
~ Its hard to pick just *3* important dates.. so ill pick a few that really stand out to me and ARE special.
1. June 1996 (Got my first collie puppy, Izaac)
2. July 2001 (Got my drivers license and new car)
3. May 2009 (Got my very first apt, as crappy as it was, it WAS my first home away from home).

THREE THINGS YOU'VE DONE IN THE LAST 30 MINUTES
1. Started this meme
2. Talked and vented to my friend ~UnleashedFury over the phone.
3. Pondered stopping this and going to bed, but finishing this won me over.

THREE WAYS TO BE HAPPY
1. Having my animals being happy, healthy, and sound.
2. Listening to music
3. Drawing what I want when I want. (fuck you, college. :/ )

THREE GIFTS YOU WOULD LIKE TO RECEIVE *now*
1. A miracle for Meadow
2. A wonderful home for Toushiro (don’t ask about this, please..)
3. A lift from my depression.

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES
1. Being out with my dog/s
2. Being outside
3. Drawing and writing

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO FOR VACATION
1. Japan
2. Egypt
3. Alaska

THREE FAVORITE DRINKS
1. Green tea frappe
2. Dr. Pepper
3. Cherry Coke

THREE THINGS FOUND IN YOUR HANDBAG/BAG
1. Toushiro wallet
2. Checkbook
3. Keys

THREE FAVORITE COLORS
1. Black
2. Blue
3. Silver

TOP THREE WHO YOU THINK WILL ANSWER THIS SURVEY
1. Meeku?
2. Tor?
3. Katree?

TOP THREE "THINGS" SPECIAL TO YOU
~ Things? Hrm..
1. My Izaac plaque that my friend Amanda had made for me years ago, its beautiful and I love it to bits.
2. My Edward Elric RAH figure
3. My awesome kick ass Atem/Yami Yugi figure.

TOP THREE REASONS THAT MAKE YOU HAPPY LATELY
1. Loving on and being with Meadowlark
2. Being around and
3. Sleeping. (it takes me away from this world if even for a little while..)

TOP THREE REASONS WHY YOU ANSWERED THIS SURVEY
1. I wanted to.
2. To keep my mind off other things
3. Because my friends are doing it, and bandwagons are fun.

THREE JOBS I HAVE HAD IN MY LIFE
1. McDonalds (God..)
2. US Bank
3. Wal-mart

THREE PLACES I HAVE LIVED
1. Various places in Ky
2. Stayed in Virginia for a while off and on
3. Visited many others..

THREE OF MY FAVORITE FOODS
1. Crab Rangoon
2. Asian Stuffs of basically any kind
3. Steak (Mhhm..)

THREE PETS THAT YOU HAVE OWNED
~ Oh man.. okay, I’ll name the ones that really connected to me the most..
1. Tabby “Tabs” (My orange tabby female cat)
2. Izaac “Izzy” (Male tri-factor sable and white male collie)
3. Sumooku “Tsume” (Male smoky and white male cat)

THREE FAVORITE SPORTS TO WATCH:
1. Dog agility
2. Nothing else really..
3. Dislike sports. Yep.

TAG:
1. Says tag the same ppl so… Mamba!
2. And.. Meeku
3. And Tor
4. And Katree!

Do eet. Now.




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~-wolfhusky- - Sketchbook Commission :.: Three of 15 sketched :.: (Half paid)
CW Tyger - 2 commissions. 'Tracker and CW Fighting :.: Both Sketched :.: (Half paid)
*ReallyTallMidget - Group of wolf OC's :.: Sketched :.: (Paid)
*Ciddeon - Himself and his mate Tor together :.: Not Started (ideas!) :.: (Awaiting Payment)


**NO ARTTRADES UNLESS OTHERWISE NOTED**


4 of 100 complete!


The Comic Crew!

Art, Storyline, Characters, Panel Layout
*nighttracker
Inks and Character color
~AngelTigress03
Natural Backgrounds color
~SanzosKitten
Cityscape and Urban Backgrounds color
*SinMisericordia21
Speech Bubbles and Text
~CatBoyXD

Im working on what I can when I can, hopefully the first pages will start turning up by early summer!


~ - Figure of myself, signed and based
~Character sheets for PPiT
~Various anime fanart
~Few various gift arts for fluffy friends out there.
~Horse requests that I will get to when I have the time and inspiration for them. (I havnt forgotten about these!)


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Those I hold dear and have a special connection too. Im always willing to chat to anyone with sense, I just dont IM much, feel free to IM me! <3

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~LiveJournal: - [link]
~Furaffinity: - [link]
~FanartCentral: - [link] I have yet to upload anything here.
~Y!Gallery: - [link] I have yet to upload anything here as well. Yay boylove.

If you ever should see my artwork anywhere and its obviously not me, I would like to be noted if possible so I can take care of it. Thankyou. s!

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--- NightTracker ---
DarkWolf of Nightmares

I knew it, she does, she has lymphoma. The vet only gives her a few months to perhaps a year with the medicine im going to go get for her right now, and I cant stop crying. She said chemo wouldnt be that great for her, but it was an option, and if she dosnt have to long anyway.. I dont want to make her miserable during what time she has left.

Again, its happening AGAIN. Im going to lose her, its only a matter of time. Im hoping with this medication that it'll go into remission and stay in remission for a long time, but, thats on God's decision. Im shaking so bad right now. The vet said it all depends on the dog, I just hope she remains strong for me, and herself, and shows me she wants to stay for more than just a few months to a year.

I just.. I dont want to do anything, right now. I dont think ive cried this hard since Tabby's death.




**NO REQUESTS**

~This stands untill further notice. Do not note me, do not ask me in any shape, form or fashion.
~I do however, and will, take COMMISSIONS. Check my ShoutBoard for Commission Prices.


~-wolfhusky- - Sketchbook Commission :.: Three of 15 sketched :.: (Half paid)
CW Tyger - 2 commissions. 'Tracker and CW Fighting :.: Both Sketched :.: (Half paid)
*ReallyTallMidget - Group of wolf OC's :.: Sketched :.: (Paid)
*Ciddeon - Himself and his mate Tor together :.: Not Started (ideas!) :.: (Awaiting Payment)


**NO ARTTRADES UNLESS OTHERWISE NOTED**


4 of 100 complete!


The Comic Crew!

Art, Storyline, Characters, Panel Layout
*nighttracker
Inks and Character color
~AngelTigress03
Natural Backgrounds color
~SanzosKitten
Cityscape and Urban Backgrounds color
*SinMisericordia21
Speech Bubbles and Text
~CatBoyXD

Im working on what I can when I can, hopefully the first pages will start turning up by early summer!


~ - Figure of myself, signed and based
~Character sheets for PPiT
~Various anime fanart
~Few various gift arts for fluffy friends out there.
~Horse requests that I will get to when I have the time and inspiration for them. (I havnt forgotten about these!)


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Those I hold dear and have a special connection too. Im always willing to chat to anyone with sense, I just dont IM much, feel free to IM me! <3

in no particular order:
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~LiveJournal: - [link]
~Furaffinity: - [link]
~FanartCentral: - [link] I have yet to upload anything here.
~Y!Gallery: - [link] I have yet to upload anything here as well. Yay boylove.

If you ever should see my artwork anywhere and its obviously not me, I would like to be noted if possible so I can take care of it. Thankyou. s!

Livejournal is always updated, usually nightly, or every other night. Sometimes there are lull's, but I always bounce back to it.


How I love them to bits and peices! <3




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--- NightTracker ---
DarkWolf of Nightmares

Now her Inguinal lymph nodes are swollen, the ones on the inside of the back legs. Their large and rubbing against each other, it may be why shes continuing to limp. The more I read on lymph node swelling in dogs, the more it leads into lymphoma and lymph sarcoma. And if the others swell and go untreated, then vet articles ive been reading give the dog just over a month. Im so frightened right now of the TIME its taking these vets to diagnose this that im terrified of losing her to whatever this is, because more and more are starting to swell. Its talking about Chemo and radiation to treat lymphoma and how some senior dogs dont do as well, but can, and that if the lymphoma gets to bad, that treatement only gives about 10% of their life back to them.

I dont want to lose her this early. I dont know what I would do. Im so upset, I cant even think straight, and the vet line is busy. Im going to keep calling until I get SOMETHING.




**NO REQUESTS**

~This stands untill further notice. Do not note me, do not ask me in any shape, form or fashion.
~I do however, and will, take COMMISSIONS. Check my ShoutBoard for Commission Prices.


~-wolfhusky- - Sketchbook Commission :.: Three of 15 sketched :.: (Half paid)
CW Tyger - 2 commissions. 'Tracker and CW Fighting :.: Both Sketched :.: (Half paid)
*ReallyTallMidget - Group of wolf OC's :.: Sketched :.: (Paid)
*Ciddeon - Himself and his mate Tor together :.: Not Started (ideas!) :.: (Awaiting Payment)


**NO ARTTRADES UNLESS OTHERWISE NOTED**


4 of 100 complete!


The Comic Crew!

Art, Storyline, Characters, Panel Layout
*nighttracker
Inks and Character color
~AngelTigress03
Natural Backgrounds color
~SanzosKitten
Cityscape and Urban Backgrounds color
*SinMisericordia21
Speech Bubbles and Text
~CatBoyXD

Im working on what I can when I can, hopefully the first pages will start turning up by early summer!


~ - Figure of myself, signed and based
~Character sheets for PPiT
~Various anime fanart
~Few various gift arts for fluffy friends out there.
~Horse requests that I will get to when I have the time and inspiration for them. (I havnt forgotten about these!)


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//


Those I hold dear and have a special connection too. Im always willing to chat to anyone with sense, I just dont IM much, feel free to IM me! <3

in no particular order:
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/


~LiveJournal: - [link]
~Furaffinity: - [link]
~FanartCentral: - [link] I have yet to upload anything here.
~Y!Gallery: - [link] I have yet to upload anything here as well. Yay boylove.

If you ever should see my artwork anywhere and its obviously not me, I would like to be noted if possible so I can take care of it. Thankyou. s!

Livejournal is always updated, usually nightly, or every other night. Sometimes there are lull's, but I always bounce back to it.


How I love them to bits and peices! <3




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--- NightTracker ---
DarkWolf of Nightmares

Im sorry, but I have to say something.

Came home to relax and do some cleaning and draw a bit. Jessica txts my phone saying that she may drop by, that her and a friend of hers was out walking, and they were heading over my way, from CAMPUS. Thats quite a distance when your walking, it takes me about 10 minutes by car. So, shes like I have a friend with me who wants to meet you, so im like sure, you can visit for a bit. So she and her friend come over. She recognized me as Yami from OMGcon, so that was kinda cool, but they come in and sit on my love-seat, I sit on the end and we start talking. I tell them at the beginning that there are other things I wanna do, and Ravin, her friend, was saying she didnt wanna walk back. I had news for them, I was in to stay and wasnt driving their butts back to campus. :/ Ravin puts her feet up on my coffee table BEFORE asking if she could (I didnt care, but ask before you do something please. :/ ) and then shes like "Im going to go through my candy" and moved everything on my coffee table without asking, and dumped it all on top of it. >.> Jessica also went to grab and hold Toshirou, whom was not happy and nearly snapped at her, I quickly told her to put him down. >.< She leaves candy wrappers in my floor, and they really dont interact with me wholly, if you get what I mean, in my own place. So we talk about anime a bit, and im like here, ill show you some of the characters in some scenes that im going to cosplay, and when im trying to show them things, they dont really pay attention, so I turn the stuff off, and then tell them that they should really leave, and so they get up, Ravin (it was mostly her that urked me really) dumps leaves and crap out of her shoes INTO MY FLOOR and then when I called her on it, she picks it up and puts it on Toshi's back. It took willpower not to tell them to hurry up and shut the door in their faces.

So yeah, that kinda pissed me off a bit.

At least I didnt have to worry about trick-or-treater's at the door tonight, all is quiet.

Meh.

Im going to straighten my coffee table up and sketch a bit. *smiles some*




**NO REQUESTS**

~This stands untill further notice. Do not note me, do not ask me in any shape, form or fashion.
~I do however, and will, take COMMISSIONS. Check my ShoutBoard for Commission Prices.


~-wolfhusky- - Sketchbook Commission :.: Three of 15 sketched :.: (Half paid)
CW Tyger - 2 commissions. 'Tracker and CW Fighting :.: Both Sketched :.: (Half paid)
*ReallyTallMidget - Group of wolf OC's :.: Sketched :.: (Paid)
*Ciddeon - Himself and his mate Tor together :.: Not Started (ideas!) :.: (Awaiting Payment)


**NO ARTTRADES UNLESS OTHERWISE NOTED**


4 of 100 complete!


The Comic Crew!

Art, Storyline, Characters, Panel Layout
*nighttracker
Inks and Character color
~AngelTigress03
Natural Backgrounds color
~SanzosKitten
Cityscape and Urban Backgrounds color
*SinMisericordia21
Speech Bubbles and Text
~CatBoyXD

Im working on what I can when I can, hopefully the first pages will start turning up by early summer!


~ - Figure of myself, signed and based
~Character sheets for PPiT
~Various anime fanart
~Few various gift arts for fluffy friends out there.
~Horse requests that I will get to when I have the time and inspiration for them. (I havnt forgotten about these!)


////


//


Those I hold dear and have a special connection too. Im always willing to chat to anyone with sense, I just dont IM much, feel free to IM me! <3

in no particular order:
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/


~LiveJournal: - [link]
~Furaffinity: - [link]
~FanartCentral: - [link] I have yet to upload anything here.
~Y!Gallery: - [link] I have yet to upload anything here as well. Yay boylove.

If you ever should see my artwork anywhere and its obviously not me, I would like to be noted if possible so I can take care of it. Thankyou. s!

Livejournal is always updated, usually nightly, or every other night. Sometimes there are lull's, but I always bounce back to it.


How I love them to bits and peices! <3




:thumb37015398:
:thumb74403783:








/> End Transmission. ^.^



--- NightTracker ---
DarkWolf of Nightmares

Just got back from the vet. They took a sample of cells from her throat and sent it off, they should know something for certain come hopefully monday or tuesday and they'll call me with whatever. Theres a possibility it COULD be some form of lymph-node cancer. I forget what they called it exactly, but if its already begun to spread, theres not a whole lot they could do other than try and battle it with stronger antibiotics. Because depending on what type of situation we have is on whether they remove the ones in her throat or not, because it HAS spread to her shoulders. Im so scared, and very upset. It seems that no matter what.. ALL of my fur-kids end up with some type of cancer, and it kills them. Izaac was lucky, his cancer (Yes, he had cancer) wasnt really starting to spread until he was humanely euthanized.

I know she isnt comfortable, shes even starting to hack and bring up thick saliva. Shes still limping on her back right leg too. I hate this. I hate not knowing. I cant wait to hear whatever news, and I hope and pray to God that it ISNT cancerous, that something can be done and she'll be fine. But im so worried, so upset, that all I want to do is sit here and cry.

I swear it, im just cursed when it comes to my fur-kids. I love them all so much..

*ears swivel back, tail low, whines and trots off into shadows bliss where none can see*




**NO REQUESTS**

~This stands untill further notice. Do not note me, do not ask me in any shape, form or fashion.
~I do however, and will, take COMMISSIONS. Check my ShoutBoard for Commission Prices.


~-wolfhusky- - Sketchbook Commission :.: Three of 15 sketched :.: (Half paid)
CW Tyger - 2 commissions. 'Tracker and CW Fighting :.: Both Sketched :.: (Half paid)
*ReallyTallMidget - Group of wolf OC's :.: Sketched :.: (Paid)
*Ciddeon - Himself and his mate Tor together :.: Not Started (ideas!) :.: (Awaiting Payment)


**NO ARTTRADES UNLESS OTHERWISE NOTED**


4 of 100 complete!


The Comic Crew!

Art, Storyline, Characters, Panel Layout
*nighttracker
Inks and Character color
~AngelTigress03
Natural Backgrounds color
~SanzosKitten
Cityscape and Urban Backgrounds color
*SinMisericordia21
Speech Bubbles and Text
~CatBoyXD

Im working on what I can when I can, hopefully the first pages will start turning up by early summer!


~ - Figure of myself, signed and based
~Character sheets for PPiT
~Various anime fanart
~Few various gift arts for fluffy friends out there.
~Horse requests that I will get to when I have the time and inspiration for them. (I havnt forgotten about these!)


////


//


Those I hold dear and have a special connection too. Im always willing to chat to anyone with sense, I just dont IM much, feel free to IM me! <3

in no particular order:
////
////
////
////
/


~LiveJournal: - [link]
~Furaffinity: - [link]
~FanartCentral: - [link] I have yet to upload anything here.
~Y!Gallery: - [link] I have yet to upload anything here as well. Yay boylove.

If you ever should see my artwork anywhere and its obviously not me, I would like to be noted if possible so I can take care of it. Thankyou. s!

Livejournal is always updated, usually nightly, or every other night. Sometimes there are lull's, but I always bounce back to it.


How I love them to bits and peices! <3




:thumb37015398:
:thumb74403783:








/> End Transmission. ^.^



--- NightTracker ---
DarkWolf of Nightmares